Living Today

"As you listen to the thought, you feel a conscious presence - your deeper self - behind or underneath the thought, as it were. This is the beginning of the end of involuntary and compulsive thinking." - Eckhart Tolle

I've been doing great progress in healing myself and learning to forgive myself and others. It's a working progress and I'm doing my best to live my life in the present moment.

I still look back at my past, not to dwell on the bad times, but to learn from my mistakes. I also look back at the times when I'm happy. I cherish the moments and whenever I look back, I smile.

For years, I've had an awakening of my spiritual existence. I didn't know what was happening. It kind of scared me a little because I was confused. When I'd have these awakening, I would stop what I'm doing and look at my fingers. I stop and think about where I'm at that moment and what my purpose of living is. I would ask my friends if they ever experienced what I described, and none of them seemed to understand me.

My awakening seemed very random. It probably started about 10 years ago. For awhile, it used to be about twice a year. Then as the years pass, it became more frequent. The awakening was very automatic for me. I knew when it happened, but could not understand what it meant.

I finally know now, that what I was experiencing for many years was the power of NOW. I have read/listened to the audio book "The Power of Now" By Eckhart Tolle - and it now makes sense to me. I often wondered if others were feeling the same way as I did. Not one friend understood what I was going through. The only one that understood me was my husband. It's no wonder that we were put together in this lifetime.

For anyone who have not read this book yet, I highly recommend you pick up a copy. It has helped me understand what I've been going through all through the years. It also reminds me of living in the present moment.

I'm learning that there is no need to go back to the past to dwell. The past does not serve a purpose unless you learn from them.

"When you surrender and let go of the past, you allow yourself to be fully alive in the moment. Letting go of the past means that you can enjoy the dream that is happening right now."
- DON Miguel Ruiz